oops empty bed

Its a huge bed without a little body in it. He is so small but takes up an enormous part of our bed. A king size isn’t big enough for us.
He took off to his cousins house tonight no tears no fear no looking back. Besides of course calling out a few morms as he tends to do.
Heartbreak delux for me with an empty house and even emptier bed.
Its 11h30 and I am battling to sleep without my little monkey.
It seems even having your back kicked all night long is soothing if its done regularly enough lol
Well tonight its not there and so sleep is eluding me. Sigh thus I am writing this blog. Seems all my boy needs is his bunny and he is fine. What about his morm sigh

Why easter bunny

Well good morning monkey the easter bunny came to visit. He left eggs in garden and the face lit up. Um no its raining so he left them in your room. Noooo mom in garden. Oh dear mom why couldn’t u control the weather. Finally after promising the bunny would come back later and leave eggs in the garden he went to look in his room.

He couldn’t even find them right in front on the shelves so how he will find them in the garden I know not. Lol oh well let’s see.

Oops I been posting but seems not going anywhere oh dear sigh now what

being my mom?

I was thinking am I in anyway like my mom was. Yip in a lot of ways I am but when it comes to being a mom I am me.
I had an absolute fear I wouldn’t be able to love my boy as I had been abandoned at a young age and feared I to would have the ability to abandon my kids. Walk away and never see them again.
It is with utter relief I realised no I am not my mother instead I am a mother who can’t wait to get home to my boy. I get agitated if I am not home for his bed time routine. Worrying and fretting how he is coping without me
I suppose its super over load made in compensation for the nights I went to bed alone not been tucked in kissed and prayed with.
And it is with tears of joy I realise that while I may mimic my mother in other ways when it comes to being a mom I am doing the best I can without having had an example to follow. Thank you Lord for making me me.

boys at play or

Two boys playing one bigger an one younger. The older one pulls down the younger ones pants and makes pooping noises.
Do you speak to the parents and upset them or do you ignore it as boys at play.
How much control does a parent have over the actions of their child.
Do you just explain to your child that’s naughty and hope they don’t do it to another child or what.
Sigh parenting a child is taxing and worrying but oh so worth it

an emotional time bomb

Arrive to fetch my little guy and he is so excited to see mom. Exploding with joy and delight almost unable to contain his excitement. Little eyes a light laughter bubbling forth. What a joy delux.
We in the car on the way home and he is asking if we are going to the red shop (kfc). Already the face drops and sulk starts setting in. I try and break it and he kind of smiles but he is not happy.
We arrive home and he bursts out crying screaming his hand is sore where the cat scratched him but he won’t let me see to it.
Suddenly a flying ant lands on his shirt and he is hysterical get it off and bursts out crying even harder. The laughter comes as a surprise even to himself as he watches the flying ant weave and bob near the light a good safe distance away.
Dinner over we head off to bath and when I try and help with rinsing his hair he starts screaming sobbing throwing things.
I feel for my little guy he is tiny and he is trying to deal with things as best he can but there is a limit to allowing him to play out all emotions however he chooses.

But he is learning to reign them in a little faster after each outburst and for that I am eternally grateful for I am not sure of my own emoTional time bomb

Oh yeah mom?

Shew all these years wanting waiting crying to god to make me a mom and oh yeah finally I am. A little monkey of note running around the house.
Are there parents out there that are in control

Before I would look at a child and they would meekly submit and do as told. Do momies give birth to all there control power as well and loose it more with each additional child.

I know I give my two and a half year old the very same stare that withered my nieces and nephews making them scamper to do as they were told.

Sigh let me just pick up the toys mop the spill put on the movie and do as master bids.